“Behold, I am the Lord , the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for me?
Jeremiah 32:27 ESV
I wonder if you’re like me.
I don’t think I have trouble believing that God can do anything. I believe He actually parted the Red Sea, raised a shepherd boy up to be king, sent angels to surround an enemy army, calmed the stormy seas, fed the five thousand and conquered sin and death.
I just don’t believe He can use me.
It’s easy for me to see Jesus working for and with others. I particularly love to see my wife and her ministry and hear how God is speaking through her into the lives of young people.
But, I have a temper. I don’t obey. I spent too much time in the Army and in factories for my mouth to say the right things. I get depressed and fearful. And, well, it all boils down to the fact that I just don’t obey.
Since I was a child my mantra has been, “you can’t tell me what to do.” With everybody!
God says “jump” and I say, “now wait a minute…”
I don’t want to be this way. But then God says “jump” and I say, “oh, I can’t do that!”
Why did He choose me?!
His voice speaks into my heart then.
“But child, I did choose you. It was not because of how great you were or what I thought I could accomplish through you. I chose you because I love you. Whether you ever DO anything for me or not.”
I feel sad. I stress and struggle and feel like such a disappointment.
What I need to do is rest!
In the end, it’s all about Him. He lifts me up. He accomplishes His will through me. He makes me willing and able. No glory belongs to me, all of it is rightfully His.
The greatest pastor, musician, evangelist, whatever deserves nothing of the glory that we give them (even if they think they deserve it). Because without Him, we are nothing.
So if you are like me, quiet your heart and the voices shouting their condemnation. “Fix your eyes on Jesus…”