right – The Healing Worshipper

My brain gets stuck on things and then once again, “fools rush in where angels fear to tread.”

See, I’ve listened to great marriage counselors and speakers who talk about how they “married up”, married someone who was out of their league.

Always, it is a guy. I’ve never heard a woman say this. Of course, I’ve also never heard a woman say, “he married up when he got me.” That would be weird.

Now, as someone who married up, I find myself still having a problem with this.

What is the end result?

OK, so your husband is an idiot. He’s a loser. He can’t do anything right.

Oh wait, your wife is perfect. Walk in shame next to her.

Yeah, I know, overly dramatic, but here’s the problem. God gave us to each other. I don’t believe he ever goes, “well, this one is great but I can’t find a good match for them. Guess I’ll just give them this one.”

I’m pretty sure that when God brings two people together, he’s stoked because he is bringing the best for both people. Even with all their faults and issues, they are RIGHT for each other. RIGHT! Each is blessed to be with the other. The world is blessed because they are together.

It really is amazing.

So yeah, I married up. I would never claim to be better than her. But maybe I should see myself as perfect for her and step it up a bit.

He is jealous for me,

loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,

bending beneath the weight of His wind

and Mercy

All of a sudden,

I am unaware of these afflictions

Eclipsed by glory

And I realize just how beautiful You are

And how great Your affections are for me

I sang those words tonight, sang them with everything that is in me. But do I believe them? Do I live them in such a way that would lead me to leap off of a cliff in expectation of His arms beneath me?

Quite honestly, I don’t think I do. The season I am in has me reeling as I find myself with no options but to wait on God. I have done what needed to be done. I have been faithful in what God has given me and nothing is turning out right.

I need a job. I have not had steady, life-supporting work since April. Because of trying to work, I have no unemployment, no insurance, and no where else to turn. Our finances, our utilities, our home are all threatened and life feels like it is on shaky ground.

Do you know that there is no better place to be?

Time to put up or shut up. When you can not depend on anyone but Jesus, you realize that you never could depend on anyone but Him. I realize that all along, I was really dependent on myself. And that is a bad place to be.

That is not my home, my refuge. That is not the rock I would build my house on.

He is my strong tower. He is my refuge, my fortress.

The Healing Worshipper

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