In the book of Esther there is a scene where the chosen bride goes before the king at the risk of her life. In that kingdom, to go before him uninvited could bring an immediate execution. She enters and he extends his scepter and she is welcomed into his presence.
I can’t get this picture out of my mind.
I was praying this week and saw it so clearly in my mind. Only I was Esther.
And I think there are others out there that need to hear this.
I approach God with the idea that I could die, that he could judge me, hate me, reject me. And in one sense, it’s all true, if I ignore the character, the nature of Jesus, the person of my Father King.
But in the story, you never get the sense of even a moment of hesitation. It wasn’t like this human king even had to think a bit. She enters and is accepted.
So am I. So are you.
It’s not that we don’t deserve the shame we feel, the condemnation, the rejection. But because of the cross, because of the blood of Jesus that makes us clean, we are accepted without question, without hesitation.
And do we get accepted so that we can go sit in the back and be quiet? Ha! Do we get accepted so that we can wait our turn as other “more important” things are dealt with? Not at all!
In a very real sense, God pauses his usual activity to hear us, to spend time with us.
I don’t know how that works since I’m pretty sure if God took his hands off the universe for a second it would crumble. But with all that he has to do in this world, his attention shifts dramatically to us, to me.
I know myself to be a fairly silly person, angry and emotional about some pretty trivial things sometimes. I make requests of God that probably I should be embarrassed to even be thinking about.
But guess what? Not only does He accept me! Not only does He listen to me! He also wants to hear what I’m asking. He wants to know what I think I need. And before I can even ask, He is promising me the Kingdom!
So why do I, how can I ignore Him? Ever?
“Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16 (ESV)