We all have a sin sickness.
That thing that, despite our best efforts to conceal it, proves to us how messed up we are.
No one gets to escape it without the blood of Jesus Christ covering us.
It’s not enough to get saved, to find Jesus. I’m sorry if you think it is. I found Jesus and really all it did was open my eyes to my desperate need for more of Him, more of the Spirit, more of God’s leading and power. I needed Him to HEAL me. And I found, we have to want healing.
Not want like, “I want a breakfast burrito.” More like, “I’m suffocating and I want air.”
In the jails, there are so many that from youth have been told the lie that they are just bad people. In the bars, there are so many that believe they are not worthy of love, incapable of commitment. The druggies, the prostitutes, the gays, the gamers that all believe that they can not hope for anything different. That is just who they are.
Yep I lumped all those together. Addictions, struggles, issues, whether society accepts and approves of them or not, have similar obstacles to overcome.
Oh, and in case it’s not obvious, porn, alcohol, affairs, work, temper tantrums, hate, control, arrogance are just a few of the others that fit into the same ideas.
The story in the Bible (John 5) goes that there was a pool where an angel would “stir the waters” (whatever that means) and the sick person who got in first was healed. Jesus comes along and sees a guy who has been there for thirty-eight years. His question hits me.
“Do you want to be healed?”
Jesus offers healing. We offer excuses. I want to be better, stronger, healthier, problem and struggle free. But if solutions are presented, we see only impossibilities. I’m not strong enough. I can’t do it. I’m just a failure. It’s who I am and I don’t even need to change.
Jesus offers healing that comes in the form of wholeness, peace, joy, strength, victory. And no addiction, no chosen lifestyle offers anything that compares. And I know I need more of those things. I want healing. Now I just have to want it bad enough to submit myself to the authority of the one who offers it.
I’m tired of the sickness. I sick of being sick. I’m tired of the fight against my selfishness and self-actualization.
I just want Him.