I decided to step out in faith recently. I was going to trust God to catch me or die in the attempt. I can see that God is catching me. I will start working for my church in a week. We have paid all our bills though I have had no work. But, there are still scary things looming on the horizon.
I don’t recommend that everyone just quit their job. I do recommend spending lots of time reading the bible, talking to Jesus, serving Him and people.
What I’m finding in this process is that I love Him more. I want His voice, His presence more and more. I want to learn more and grow more. I want to share more.
Yesterday, when it came time for the offering, though we have so little, I wanted to give.
This is not natural for this stingy old heart.
I’m not bragging. This came out of what God put inside, it didn’t come from me.
I love to worship, that is normal for me. It has been a temptation to want to manipulate God (yeah, I did this) by my worship. I wanted to win His favor by showing Him how much I love Him.
There is a quietness, a peace that has entered the worship of my King. That is not normal for me, but it is so good.
I don’t know what you think of all of this. I certainly have my times of crankiness, of fear and doubt. I don’t know where we’re going. But, I’m starting to enjoy the ride. I’m excited about the journey, excited about the future.
I can’t help it…