Never too Far

First off, thank you to those who expressed to me how they miss it when I don’t write.  It can be easy to listen to the lies that say my writing doesn’t matter, I don’t matter.  I have appreciated the encouragement.

I was praying the other day and realized that I had once again turned to complaining.  This is all too common.  Strangely common also was that this was during a worship service.

I know!  I shouldn’t be complaining during worship.  It just seems that so often when I am declaring His greatness it step right into wondering why my problems feel so difficult and why can’t He do something about them.

And really, maybe it is a bad thing, complaining in worship but in one sense, I’m “ok” with it.  For me, the whole idea of falling on my knees, raising my hands is a coupling of two ideas.  One is God’s greatness.  The other is my complete dependence on Him as His broken, flawed, desperate child.

Anyway, in the midst of worship, in the midst of complaining, a theme arose around Psalm 23.  Different parts of it came out but I got stuck on “your rod and your staff, they comfort me” (verse 4).

I haven’t read a commentary on this so maybe I’m seeing it wrong, but I think a rod is for whacking and a staff is for yanking.  I mean, the rod is what was used to smack the sheep if they weren’t moving along or going in the right direction.  The staff is like the shepherd’s crook that has a hook on one end, which I think is used to pull a sheep back.

I’m not finding a lot of “comfort” in these ideas.  I said something to that effect to my King and He said, “find comfort in knowing I will never let you go too far.”

So, in the immaturity I show, the messed up marriage that I am half of, the ineptitude of my parenting (and now grandparenting), in my complaining and anger and fear and distrust of my Lord, He will prod, He will yank, He will guide me always back to Him.

I would run.  Life seems so hard sometimes.  But, He promised He would complete me.  And, as much as I am “me” (more so), He is God.  I’m not so bad He can’t handle me.



2 thoughts on “Never too Far

  1. Faith Christophel

    You hit the nail on the head. God loves us so immensely that He disciplines and draws us back to Himself, if we’re truly His sheep; Therefore we can find comfort in His rod and staff. It means we belong to Him. He is greatly to be praised.
    It’s the 1st time I saw one of your posts. I forget to look at my email.
    I love you brother

  2. Pat Hawkins

    You don’t know what your’re missing, Faith. His posts are all good, though admittedly some are better than others. I am one who misses them when they are not there even though I do not get to them on time every time. I bawled through this one and I thought, if my son sounds like this what about ME with my background. Broken, flawed, desperate – Some of us just seem to be so “good” at those things. I don’t know whether I appreciate GRACE any more than anyone else, but I owe EVERYTHING to Jesus Christ and His marvelous GRACE! Like an ocean pouring over me, like a river that, in my bumbling, I have fallen into, carrying me right into HOME forever! Jesus is Lord! Worship of Him is a fine and perfect time to let Him know you are aware of your complaining and everything else. He already knows but the old-time pastors used to say, “He loves to hear you say it to Him anyway.” Sometimes He seems to use us flawed ones BECAUSE OF our flaws, not just IN SPITE OF them. He is all wisdom, mercy, and love. We always mess up and He always rescues and restores. And He LOVES to be asked! I am so proud of what God is doing with my own beloved children. You are loved – and held in awe!! Dad

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