It makes me laugh to hear it now.
For years the accusation from satan has been to point out what a ridiculous person I am.
And it’s the truth.
When I cheer for someone, I sound like I’m angry (apparently) and I yell till I’m hoarse. When I sing in worship, I get kind of pitchy, I often sing harmony and I sing till I’m hoarse. I’m overweight but dance and jump. I laugh out loud, in church, with people watching.
I’m not sure why the last two matter but I’ve been told it’s inappropriate.
I think the accuser is often honest in what he says. He just doesn’t want to acknowledge God’s perspective. It’s like that with lots of things. And he isn’t the only one saying it.
We say it to ourselves.
No one could ever love me.
So that’s two voices speaking the same truths.
And there are other voices too.
Ha! But it doesn’t matter.
We have heard how God says He loves us. We “know” he says we are beautiful, precious, worthy. And we know that’s not true.
But here’s the thing, and I hope I’m saying this right. God’s lies are more true than anybody else’s truth. How He sees us matters more than anyone else’s opinions.
I’m not there yet. And if I try to convince myself of God’s truths it turns into ego and religion. I think the only thing I can handle right now is looking at Him more than I look at myself.
And He is beautiful!
And I’ll just accept that I’m ridiculous…
And keep dancing!