I don’t write to hear myself talk. I wish the things I did say were grander, more eloquent, more something. Instead, we just get me.
It’s not that I don’t like what I say. Sometimes I think I border on greatness. Sometimes, I think I almost get it right. I could save every post, not publish anything until I do get it right, but then you would have nothing for a very long time.
So, if I don’t say it great, if I don’t say it right, why do I keep talking?
Often, in discouragement, I do quit talking. I feel that no one would miss my words, no one would miss me, but that isn’t true. We often listen to the accuser pointing out each misspoken syllable, every poorly chosen word.
My voice is not the only voice you should listen to. My heart is not the only one you should feel. At the end of the day, with all the voices that shout for our attention, I would hope that you hear most the voice of God. And He speaks so often through His people.
He’s there in the traffic noise, in the bustle of life. He’s there in the sermons but, also in the touch of our hands, the songs that we sing, the day we live out.
You won’t get it “right” either. We are flawed, broken people. What we will say is flawed, broken, too. But, speak anyway. Don’t be afraid to speak out, to live out for all to see. What is seen and heard in our humanity yielded to Jesus is life. What is revealed is God’s glory.
3 thoughts on “No Witty Repartee?”
Your words do mean much to me, Matthew. You are an encouragement and I have been missing you quite a lot lately. Trying to figure out how I can see you for a couple of days. We are ALL broken, flawed people–you are right. Zeph. 3:17 is one of my favorite verses. This is the way I taught my kids: ‘The Lord MY God is with me; He is MIGHTY to save. He takes GREAT delight in me. He quiets me with His Love. He rejoices over me with singing’. God knows our failures better than anyone else and He still Delights in us/me. He still rejoices over us/me with singing. Can you hear Him singing over you today, Matthew?! Listen for what He says about you.
Thanx Matt… That fact that you identify as Bitter, but the bitter does not stop the Worship, even making it more honest and treasured, makes what you say worthwhile.
Your Brother in Christ
The journey is so important. I want the emotional experiences where everything is “right with the world”. God wants a heart that is seeking Him, yielded to Him in all things, at all times. Thanks for the comment.