A simple request. “Could you get me some cold water?”
And I heard the voice of God!
I practice and sing. I want to be “good”, whatever that means. Excellence is a core value for our church, and for me personally. I know that I’m not that good. I have seen to many excellent musicians, doing amazing things, to ever think that I am even in their league. But I still push myself. At fifty-one years, having played for almost thirty-seven of those years, I still want to get better, faster, more confidant, more artistic.
But one thing is blatantly revealed in my playing, I am inadequate.
This may sound like self-pity or a need for encouragement. It may sound like self-deprecation or humility. It is not.
I have so much fun playing. There are few things that sadden me more than not playing music. There are only a couple that I ask God not to take from me. One of those things is music, as realistically limited as my skills are, it is something so deep within me that to remove it would kill me.
So what does God want with me, my skills, my passions, my heart and soul? What does the Creator of the universe, the one who put me together, planned me from the beginning of time, fashioned me through physical attributes and the molding of time and experience, what does He want from me?
“Could I have some cold water please?”
Cold water in a glass on a hot summer evening. Cold water splashed in my face in the early morning. Cold water lapping at my toes as I walk the beaches of Lake Michigan. Cold water pouring over my body in the middle of winter. A cold shower, an ice pack, snow falling softly in the middle of the woods or coming in blizzards that blanket our roads, our houses.
Cold water can come in many different forms. Is that what You call me to? To be refreshing, awakening, calming, shocking, healing, quieting, covering….