I was thinking about this story again, the feeding of the five thousand, the boy with five loaves and two fish. Having worked with children now for a while it struck me, this is the only miracle that is recorded in all the gospels. Well, OK, that part didn’t strike me. What struck me is that this is one of the greatest miracles that Jesus did short of His death and resurrection. No, that wasn’t what struck me either, others have made that statement too. What struck me, no seriously, what astounded me is that this is a miracle only a child could have been part of.
Let me tell you what I’ve seen. Kids that have gone through pretty rough family stuff tend to see the hurts and needs of others at a different level than the rest of us. They don’t look at their own needs first or, should they look at them, they are more willing to lay them aside. Kids who have been hurt, some kids not all, pursue God without knowing that they are too little, too inexperienced to be worth anything to God.
Consider this, where were the parents of this child in such a crowd. I would submit that they may not have been alive. Surely if they were present, they would have hindered him in giving up his lunch. And did he seek to share his lunch? I think not. He gave it up, knowing that it meant that he would get none. He had gone hungry many times before this and to miss one more meal was not that big of a deal for him. He was resourceful, the only one in the crowd who thought ahead enough to bring food. But, in the face of the needs around him, put aside his need to give it away to others.
I’m going to say it again. I wasn’t there but I would bet that he did not think he would get anything from this.
Lord, break my heart. Let me be like a child who can not see “sharing” but is willing to let go. Let me be one that pursues you not because of the crowd that surrounds me but because I have no one else to put my hope and trust in. Be my Father, my Lord, my King in such a way that though I have nothing, I give all that I am, my future, my resources to You for You to do whatever You want with them. I don’t need them. I need You!