There are some things that I’m not sure about in the bible.
Paul talked about a thorn in the flesh, a messenger from Satan. Scholars believe that it was some kind of sickness, an ailment that kept Paul humble. Others say that it was a person. I’m not convinced that it wasn’t sin, a sin that he continually struggled with.
I don’t know what Paul was dealing with, but he believed it was from Satan and was there to prove that God’s strength is made perfect in our weakness. His Grace is sufficient. Nothing says that louder to me than my constant struggle with my flesh, sins that will not let go.
The greatest temptation in all of this is to quit. Never lead worship again, never touch the life of another child. It only makes sense that someone as messed up as I am should crawl in a hole somewhere and wait for death. It only stands to reason that I should never speak, never live.
Ah, but that is the voice of Satan. And he shouts it incessantly.
The writer of Hebrews had a different take. “Fix your eyes on Jesus, the AUTHOR and PERFECTER of our faith.” He will get us through.
So get accountability, people that you can share your struggles with. Pray, be in the word, sing, do not forsake your church. Stand against Satan and against his lies.
AND NEVER GIVE UP!!!!